I am drawing a blank. One of those times when I am not finding the direction of something to write. Usually I hear a podcast, read an article, or am mindful of something going on in me or in other teachers that seems noteworthy. Perhaps this is the theme –I don’t know and being ok with that, trusting that something will arise before the deadline - or not. I am more committed these days to less perfectionism, to less is more and being more gentle with not knowing. “…not your aims or your actions are primary, but the state of consciousness out of which they come.” Eckhart Tolle.
Not knowing can bring about a range of feelings from fear to excitement. In the same situation I can feel exhilarated because I don’t know. For example I continue to find excitement with teaching and therapy. With enough structure in place, objectives, and ideas I can let go and enjoy not knowing what is really going to happen. There is a freshness that is spontaneous, creative, and in the moment. However, at other times I feel fear when doing a workshop or speaking in front of people. The ‘not knowing’ scares me. The anticipation of doing this new activity somehow still produces unpleasant sensations in my body for which I have yet to find an antidote.
So this is the last day to turn in this article. It has been an experiment of relaxing into not knowing, trusting that something will arise. I never quite cottoned on to a theme, or topic, however, except not knowing and learning to be ok with that. Perhaps that is good enough.